In what felt like just a moment, truly like a flash.
Everything was turned upside down just like it had in the past.
It was nearly eight years ago to this very day,
When we experienced something similar much to my dismay.
First it was my diagnosis and my surgery.
Thankfully they got it all and I was cancer free.
Then my husband wasn’t feeling well, but we thought it would go away.
Unfortunately, it was toxic shock, and it was here to stay.
Ten days in a coma before we would hear him speak.
He would be in the hospital for a total of three weeks.
Several months of therapy, dialysis and more.
Praying each day for healing yet not knowing what was in store.
There is one other thing to mention, that happened during that time.
Two days after Paul woke up, a call with my boss on the line.
He said there had been some changes and he had unfortunate news.
My role would be eliminated and there was little he could do.
I sat there in that moment, looking into my husband’s beautiful eyes,
I knew God had saved his life and looked up to the skies.
God knows I am the sole breadwinner, the burden is on me
To bring in the income and insurance for our family.
I brought my head into my hands and got down on my knees.
I thanked God for saving Paul and asked for one more thing.
To help keep my focus on Him and His plans from above,
And to remember and be grateful for His outpouring of love.
Yes, this was eight years ago, and we have been through so much since then.
What we didn’t expect was eight years later to be going through it again.
Thoughts:
When we find ourselves in times of great suffering, we can also find ourselves trying to control the situation – or at least the part that we think we can control. There are other times when there is truly nothing we can control. While there is a lot of debate on this, I truly don’t believe God makes bad things happen. And, I do believe He is with us both at the top of every mountain and at the bottom of every valley. When we fix our eyes on Him, it is easier to see they ways He is working things out for our good.
Invitation:
Where do you find yourself today?
If you happen to be in a time of struggle and challenge, consider spending some time with God. Even though He knows what you are going through, He asks us to come to Him always. In times of stress, He wants us to pray and ask for what we hope He will do. Even though it doesn’t mean He will provide that answer, He wants us in conversation with Him. Plead your case. Ask for help. Ask for His “peace beyond understanding”.
If you know someone else going through a difficult time, encourage them to do the same.
Reflection Song:
Casting Crowns, “Just Be Held”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIZitK6_IMQ
